It has been a long time since I have blogged, but a few friends have inspired me to re-begin my blogging! It may not be very interesting to you, but this writing helps me release some of the stresses in my world!
Life has been somewhat crazy! This semester has kicked my butt, Chemistry is one dang hard class. For all of you Chemist out there... WHY? Ugh. It is not very comprehensible to me, and I still don't understand why it is required for Nursing majors. None of my nurses can even tell me why! OH WELL. Just one of those things I need to get out of the way.
In other news.. I have been super frustrated lately, with life in general I suppose. What it boils down to is I don't know the plan for my life specifically, and I have to trust in the unknown of life. How hard is it to come to terms with that? To trust so fully in a plan I have no idea what will happen, but to know that it is in my best interest in life. God knows who I am, he knows what I need. Shouldn't that be simple enough? Why do I let Satan in and cause me to doubt? He sneaks in when I least expect it, and I am down in the dumps all over again! I have been feeling an empty void in my life lately, it comes and goes.. Its when I am not doing what i'm supposed to be doing that I feel this way. Its like I want to punch myself in the face every time I am like this because I KNOW. Is it okay to just say, we are all human who make mistakes? I am just ansy and frustrated, wanting to know right this very minute what is in store for me, or what I need to change to get on the path to what i'm supposed to be doing. But I suppose that is my trial in this life. Keep clinging to my faith, and surrounding myself with good people! So thanks to all of those around me who are good, who encourage me to keep moving forward, and for never giving up on me. I know without out my support I would have given up on my dreams long ago.
Because I have to work a lot of Sundays, my school schedule makes me work more Sundays than I would like, I live for the Sundays I get to actually attend church. Every Sunday I go I am uplifted! The talks, the lessons, everyone around me is so inspired by the spirit it is amazing! Here's a few highlights
"No one will stop your progress but yourself"
The Lord puts so much faith in us, can't we put that much faith in him?
Individual worth-"We are perfect to our Heavenly Father"
-God loves us even when we are on the wrong path
-Trust the plan
-No matter where you are, what you are doing, you are not invisible to God
-Your experiences/trials are not for forever
-"If only you can see yourself the way I do"
-Be aware of our temptations, and know how Satan will use our weaknesses against us.
-The Holy Ghost will show us all things we should do
-Satan has NO confidence in our ability to choose right from wrong, God has total confidence in our decisions
-Hope = believing and expecting things will happen
-Sometimes we are discouraged and feel lost and empty. It is these times we must cling to the truth of the gospel and have a hope it will work out by holding on until we are back in the light
So many lessons! I have learned so many more in institute and by the people who surround me daily. I am working on surrounding myself with good people ALWAYS, and stand on my own out of the darkness of Satan. Life is good. It is hard every day, but that is the trials of life. We are ever supposed to be clinging to the rod to move closer to our Heavenly Father every day. May we live every moment as if it was our last (kind of cliche), and that if it was we could be happy with the way our lives have turned out. Even if we have strayed, or even if (when) we sin, God knows our true hearts. He knows what we really want, and who we really are.
