Wednesday, February 24, 2010
"All that a man achieves and all that he fails to achieve is the direct result of his own thoughts" - James Allen
Maybe I shouldn't blog about this.. I am feeling.. Depressed! I took my attempt 2 on the TEAS test and the results were not that great. Definitely not what I was expecting at all. I have been trying to possess all the faith a person can have in the world.. its hard when a HUGE door slams in your face. I want to be a nurse more than anything i've ever wanted before. I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me. I know that. Its just really hard to see past this point in my life. I know I am only 24 and have SO much more of life and things to grow from, but being a nurse defines the very epitome of who I am. I live to serve and help others around me. Its my personality, its what I love to do. Plus I am so fascinated by how the body works, and all the "blood and guts" that I just want to be doing that! Some may think its not a great job. Why not be a doctor? Why you ask? Someone has to be the one to actually follow through with the work. No offense to doctors, but the nurses do a lot of their work. I'm used to it. Plus doctors go to school for forever, and quite frankly I just couldn't do that. This quote is one I stole from Charla's facebook status. So if I want to achieve my goal, I NEED TO DO IT. I need to possess the thoughts that I can do this, I can do this. I know I can do this. Time will tell. I know that if I don't get into Mohave's program obviously Heavenly Father can see what is best for me. So now I focus on my next attempt at the TEAS to apply at Dixie in July. That's all I need to focus on for now, oh and getting an 'A' in my astronomy class! :) Blogs are great, thoughts get out of my head! Thanks for being listeners. Don't worry, i'll be fine! Appreciate all of the encouragement. I'll start blogging more, hopefully .
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
February 16th will be my first official blog. I have given in! We'll see how long it lasts..
I have been inspired by a friend to begin a blog so that she "knows whats going on with me"...
The truth of the matter is... nothing is really going on with me. I live every day just as usual as the last. I work, go to a class a few nights a week, attend church, FHE, and Institute. Nothing out of the usual.
I left last weekend to "get away" from the world? My own personal universe? I just wanted to be somewhere neutral to be alone with my thoughts. I'm not exactly sure if that's a good thing or not! I did however have an opportunity to spend the weekend with my wonderful grandparents! They are some of the strongest people I have ever met. No matter the situation they are ALWAYS on each others side no matter what. 50 years of being together, who can even fathom that amount of time with one person! Especially since the divorce rate is SO high these days! I admire them greatly. The problem with "escaping" my life was that i was supposed to find some solutions to the so called problems I am making for myself. I think I learned a few things:
1. Always believe in myself.
2. Stop over analyzing something simple
3. Don't hope for things to change if I myself am unwilling to change
4. When I come to a solutions, FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT. Don't just let it continue to fester
5. Don't let obstacles take me away from my goals
6. Never let someone else talk me out of something I know to be true
7. People change, move on, leave, become different people. I need to accept the fact that they leave.
8. Trust in the Lord, he knows the plan
9. Allow others to help me through their experiences. Don't be afraid to share my feelings
10. Always do what I want, not what anyone else wants within reason to the Lord.
Those are just a few lessons I have been thinking about the past few weeks. I may be lonely, I may be dwelling on things, but if I allow myself to focus on the answers I receive. I know I can be happy. Trusting in my father who knows me better than I can truly know me. Please help me to constantly remember this! :) Its a struggle to always focus on the good once you're in a dark, sad place! I am happy to start getting out of the sadness and move on to the greatness!
I think i may like this whole blogging idea.. It allows me to ramble out my thoughts! Getting these thoughts out of my head is exactly what is needed! So thank you blog. You have saved me a night of thinking!
I have been inspired by a friend to begin a blog so that she "knows whats going on with me"...
The truth of the matter is... nothing is really going on with me. I live every day just as usual as the last. I work, go to a class a few nights a week, attend church, FHE, and Institute. Nothing out of the usual.
I left last weekend to "get away" from the world? My own personal universe? I just wanted to be somewhere neutral to be alone with my thoughts. I'm not exactly sure if that's a good thing or not! I did however have an opportunity to spend the weekend with my wonderful grandparents! They are some of the strongest people I have ever met. No matter the situation they are ALWAYS on each others side no matter what. 50 years of being together, who can even fathom that amount of time with one person! Especially since the divorce rate is SO high these days! I admire them greatly. The problem with "escaping" my life was that i was supposed to find some solutions to the so called problems I am making for myself. I think I learned a few things:
1. Always believe in myself.
2. Stop over analyzing something simple
3. Don't hope for things to change if I myself am unwilling to change
4. When I come to a solutions, FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT. Don't just let it continue to fester
5. Don't let obstacles take me away from my goals
6. Never let someone else talk me out of something I know to be true
7. People change, move on, leave, become different people. I need to accept the fact that they leave.
8. Trust in the Lord, he knows the plan
9. Allow others to help me through their experiences. Don't be afraid to share my feelings
10. Always do what I want, not what anyone else wants within reason to the Lord.
Those are just a few lessons I have been thinking about the past few weeks. I may be lonely, I may be dwelling on things, but if I allow myself to focus on the answers I receive. I know I can be happy. Trusting in my father who knows me better than I can truly know me. Please help me to constantly remember this! :) Its a struggle to always focus on the good once you're in a dark, sad place! I am happy to start getting out of the sadness and move on to the greatness!
I think i may like this whole blogging idea.. It allows me to ramble out my thoughts! Getting these thoughts out of my head is exactly what is needed! So thank you blog. You have saved me a night of thinking!
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