February 16th will be my first official blog. I have given in! We'll see how long it lasts..
I have been inspired by a friend to begin a blog so that she "knows whats going on with me"...
The truth of the matter is... nothing is really going on with me. I live every day just as usual as the last. I work, go to a class a few nights a week, attend church, FHE, and Institute. Nothing out of the usual.
I left last weekend to "get away" from the world? My own personal universe? I just wanted to be somewhere neutral to be alone with my thoughts. I'm not exactly sure if that's a good thing or not! I did however have an opportunity to spend the weekend with my wonderful grandparents! They are some of the strongest people I have ever met. No matter the situation they are ALWAYS on each others side no matter what. 50 years of being together, who can even fathom that amount of time with one person! Especially since the divorce rate is SO high these days! I admire them greatly. The problem with "escaping" my life was that i was supposed to find some solutions to the so called problems I am making for myself. I think I learned a few things:
1. Always believe in myself.
2. Stop over analyzing something simple
3. Don't hope for things to change if I myself am unwilling to change
4. When I come to a solutions, FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT. Don't just let it continue to fester
5. Don't let obstacles take me away from my goals
6. Never let someone else talk me out of something I know to be true
7. People change, move on, leave, become different people. I need to accept the fact that they leave.
8. Trust in the Lord, he knows the plan
9. Allow others to help me through their experiences. Don't be afraid to share my feelings
10. Always do what I want, not what anyone else wants within reason to the Lord.

Those are just a few lessons I have been thinking about the past few weeks. I may be lonely, I may be dwelling on things, but if I allow myself to focus on the answers I receive. I know I can be happy. Trusting in my father who knows me better than I can truly know me. Please help me to constantly remember this! :) Its a struggle to always focus on the good once you're in a dark, sad place! I am happy to start getting out of the sadness and move on to the greatness!

I think i may like this whole blogging idea.. It allows me to ramble out my thoughts! Getting these thoughts out of my head is exactly what is needed! So thank you blog. You have saved me a night of thinking!