My heart is with you.

These past few weeks have been quite interesting, hard, and eye opening. I have been so bottled up inside with emotions I just didn't realize it. I tend to let things stay inside of me while I try and help everyone else around me. I don't like to talk about myself, I don't like to dwell, and I don't like to be caudeld (?). I like to listen. To be there for others. Give them advice, or tell them my experiences, but I do not like bringing things up that are on my mind. I know this is a problem. I know I need to let it out more, but I just don't like to.

 I have so many good things in my life. When I don't talk about what is bothering me it eats at my very soul. I am.. trying to work on it. I didn't realize how tough it can be! The bad just seems to be out weighing the good at the moment, but i do know that its because I am focus on the bad.. The good is there. I just need to recognize it. I will list 10 things I am grateful for.

1. The Church. Without it. I truly would be lost to despair
2. My Savior.
3. The Atonement
4. My family
5. Brad Christensen
6. Rekindling with extended family
7. Small blessing. Getting an A in a class without taking a final
8. Old/Real friends, that I KNOW are always there. They know exactly what to say
9. New Friends. I am not friends with them by accident. I have something to learn from them
10. Life. I am thankful to be living.

Such a small list of such great blessings.. These are just a few!! Man.. That put me in such a great mood already! Maybe I will try to do this everyday.. inspiration by Tif Herpel. What a great gal. I do love her. If not everyday I for sure will try at least once a week..
Thank you for saying your heart is with me. You know who you are. Those few simple words just comforted me beyond any others. I adore and miss you.